Sunday Scribblings – past me, future me

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I was listening to the radio the other day, and it was an article where teenagers had written to the future me (five years time), and now the adults were reading what they had written to themselves.

Well I’m not a teenager, but I do have a future, so I thought perhaps i would write to past me as well as future me…

me at 15

me at 34

Dear past me.

I know there are many things you have done, which i now regret.

But i forgive you.

And there are things which for a while, i had forgotten, places you’ve been, people you’ve met, which have shaped who i am, and for that,

I thank you.

I know you were awkward, and not very trendy, but you were also so very passionate about the things which mattered to you. I would like to learn that from you again.

And maybe help others have that passion too.

I know you had some very dark, lonely times, but you have also loved and been loved. Your wonder at the world, your passion for Jesus,

I carry them with me still.

There have been times when I have wanted to forget you and all you were, but now I am so very glad to be able to write to you and say,

I’m glad you were who you were.

yours,

present me.

__ _ __ __ __ __ __ ___ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __ __


Dear Future Me,

when you read this, you will be 40, and have been married six years. (I wont put the months and days as well, as I guess you will have stopped counting them by now).

I don’t know if you will be in the same job as I am now, but I’m sure you will have served as best you could, God and the young people you meet.

I hope you have continued to listen out for Gods words.

I hope you now cope with stress a bit better than I do.

I know you and R still love each other, and that love will have changed, deepened as you have shared your lives together these past 6 years.

A is now an adult and M six and a half. The present me is excited to think about how they have grown and changed. I hope you have managed to be part of their lives as I hope you will.

Future me, I hope you have learnt to be less hard on yourself than I am. I hope that as I have looked at past me and remembered the joy and passion i felt about life, that as you look back, you will be able to see how you reclaimed those things.

Future me, you only have one life, I hope that you have been able to approach it with both patience and joy, and that you do not linger on regrets but enjoy all that God has brought you since I wrote this to you.

and future me, I hope you haven’t thought me to pretentious in all this,

yours,

(now) past me.

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7 thoughts on “Sunday Scribblings – past me, future me

  1. I like the idea of writing to yourself in both past and present. I can definitely identify with that wish to recover a youthful sense of passion, and the wish to approach life with more of both patience and joy.Nice piece.

  2. One thing stood out for me in this post – you said to your past self ‘I forgive you’. That’s something I haven’t been able to do yet. I’m still apologising to myself for things I did which I am bitterly ashamed of.One day perhaps I will be able to say those things to my past self too.

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